Ugh...things have been rough. I have been dealing with dr's appointments and tests. Things seem to be getting better medically, but I have not been doing well financially. I have just been functioning. Getting through. Bare minimum of everything.

I hope I can get my focus back and get out of my funk.
I will try to post more soon.

I have found myself in somewhat of a depression. Although I got the news that I do not have a brain tumor, there are some other issues that will have to be checked by a neurologist. I have some stress and anxiety from this. I am having a hard time with the loss of my dog. Even though I knew this day would come, I am incredibly sad. I am just not coping with everything well. So I spent money. Money that I don't have. I'm ashamed. I can convince myself that we need more food or that we need something for the house. I am needing to eat a little different diet, so I did have to buy some things but I got too much. So now I have to sit down and figure out the aftermath. With the vet bill and our regular expenses, I didn't have anything extra so I am dreading even looking at it. I need something else to help me feel better. Exercise is not an option right now. No garden this year. Can't concentrate long enough to read. I'm open to some suggestions.

I am trying to take all of the advice and comments I get with a grain of salt. I have been told I don't make enough money. I have gotten messages that I am not responsible. I was told I'm not committed. It makes it hard.

We got paid today. We had several things to pay:
Car insurance
Dish
Loan pmt
Netflix
Internet
Filled up my car with gas

Hoping I can do some research to lower bills on my lunch tomorrow.